Don't know

Don't know why for the last few days i feel a bit lost.. My life just plain...just like plain water. Sometimes EMO unnecessarily, get mad with little things that always unreasonable.

How i missed the way i release my stress back then. I have friends who always emos with me. We screamed like hell, as if nobody there. We laughed our heart out until we get sore throat. We "menyumpah" people who make mistakes towards us. We sweating a lot because we have endless assignments to do. We run here and there to catch those untouchable lectures and not to forget those "demanding ones" in the office. How i missed to get my butt busy.

You know what if i'm doing nothing i feel numb + stupid. I tried to do things that i enjoy the best. Sewing and cooking but it could be fun if i have my own money to buy those equipments and ingredients by myself. No need to depend on others, waiting for them to bring you out for shopping and yet you can't buy the things that you want because so afraid that it will burden them with passion in those things. So i just keep that interest aside, far away, deep down in my chest.

Maybe due to the waiting period for the posting, i'm a bit lost. I have no motivation to lose my weight. My belly keep on bloating *even though lose a bit last month*. I did make a promise to shred away my weight before starts working. Sadly i lost that vows.  I thought it will out this month, because sweet little bugs said it so and yet we all still in nowhere to be placed.

P/s: There2 ambun stop it. You have to swallow (literally) every bit of that sweet deadly poison.